For a long time I lived for the validation of others. Subconsciously and unintentionally, but that fact still remains. But God, over the past three years, has shifted my mindset and grown me in ways I was not expecting. This growth has been painful, stressful, and at times, more than I thought I could handle. Yet, I am still here. Still changing, still growing.
You know those first ten to twenty seconds when you first wake up in the morning. Those first seconds of total freedom. You are aware of your life, your beingness; but you aren’t yet aware of all the “other” going-on’s in your life. In those first grateful seconds, we are the most thankful that we’ve made it through our night, and we’ve reached our glorious morning. The morning that is only gifted to us by our Lord. These moments of perfect peace.
One of the most valued lessons I’ve ever learned has come over these past few weeks. That lesson was strengthened by a conversation I had with a friend today.
These past couple of weeks, God has been gathering me. Every time I turn around, He’s teaching me a new lesson, convicting me in areas that I’ve clearly missed the mark in.
For the next 30 days, I’ve decided to abstain from social media and sex. I’ve deleted all the apps from my phone and made a reluctant, if I am being honest, promise to God that I would not share the intimacy of my soul with another person.
David said to the Philistine, “You come against me with sword and spear and javelin, but I come against you in the name of the Lord Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied. This day the Lord will deliver you into my hands, and I’ll strike you down and cut off your head…. As the Philistine moved closer to attack him, David ran quickly toward the battle line to meet him.”
You are never too broken for God to mend you back together. Your life is never too far off track for you to hand the steering wheel back to God and let Him get you to where He needs you to be. They key is to remember that you are unconditionally loved by The Father. No mistake, no setback, no failure, no sin, no wrong could ever stop God from loving you. If you would just remember that, the Potter can shape you and mold you into everything He created you to be.
Can you imagine the amount of faith it took for the lady with the discharge of blood to touch Jesus and believe for a healing? “If only I could touch his cloak, I will be healed.” She told herself. It’s interesting the amount of power in a touch. Jesus touched the rulers daughter and the blind man. The woman with the discharged touched Jesus’ cloak.
After spending eight weeks in Atlanta, I knew that it was not God’s will for me to be there. He was calling me home to Houston. There is still work for me to do in this city. Until that work is complete, I am not allowed to leave. My heart is here, so is my passion. I’m connected to a church filled with hope and believers and that pushes me to be the best person, the best follower of Christ, and the best example of Love I can be.