These past couple of weeks, God has been gathering me. Every time I turn around, He’s teaching me a new lesson, convicting me in areas that I’ve clearly missed the mark in.
For the next 30 days, I’ve decided to abstain from social media and sex. I’ve deleted all the apps from my phone and made a reluctant, if I am being honest, promise to God that I would not share the intimacy of my soul with another person.
Daniel 9:23 says, “The moment you began praying, a command was given.”
David said to the Philistine, “You come against me with sword and spear and javelin, but I come against you in the name of the Lord Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied. This day the Lord will deliver you into my hands, and I’ll strike you down and cut off your head…. As the Philistine moved closer to attack him, David ran quickly toward the battle line to meet him.”
For Scripture says to Pharaoh: “I raised you up for this very purpose, that I might display my power in you and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth.”
I woke up this morning troubled. After taking a self-assessment of my emotions, I came to realize something I’ve known for quite some time but have been reluctant to address for whatever my reasons were.
My reality is that I am not living the life I want to live. I’ve spent the last eight years moving from Houston to Los Angeles to Atlanta and, now, back I’m Houston. When I woke up this morning, I felt incomplete, as I have for a while. As always, I thought about moving.
Pause! I told myself. What are you running from? I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s not that I am running from anything, I am trying to run into my destiny.
The are dreams God has placed in my heart that I am not fulfilling. In the midst of me trying to sustain a comfortable lifestyle, I’ve sacrificed those dreams at the expense of my own fulfillment.
As I was texting my thoughts and feelings with my partner, I had somewhat of an epiphany. I will never be fulfilled living as I am – going to work everyday, attending church, hanging with friends. Those things are good and I have accomplished a lot in my life up to this point, but I am not in the position God wants me to be in.
Until I make changes to my life and start turning my dreams into a reality, I will always feel a void, like I am not where I am supposed to be.
I was reading through my notes and came across something I wrote back in November and it spoke to me on a new level. Figuratively speaking, I’ve been pregnant with ideas for long periods of time – God ideas. This pregnancy is overdue, but it’s birthing season.
There is a shift that is about to occur in my life. It’s scary because I do not have all of the answers. I do not have everything planned out. However, I do know God is the author and finisher of my destiny. That means, even though I do not have all the answers, I know the Man who does. His plans are to prosper me, to give me hope and a future.
As I have been transparent and honest in my truth, ask yourselves, friends, what dreams have God placed in your heart? What ideas are your pregnant with? Take a self-assessment and ask yourself are you doing everything it takes to accomplish those goals.
Here is where you start.
1. Meditate and pray that God reveals His vision for your life.
2. Create a vision board, or write down how you will accomplish those goals (pray for insight and clarity).
3. Work toward accomplish your goals and manifesting your dreams daily.
4. Surround yourself with people who will hold you accountable for accomplishing your dreams.
If you will do these things, I believe and declare that you will live a bountiful and blessed life.
Do you receive that, today? I know you do!
Until next time.
xoxo Justin Jamaul 🙏🏽❤️
Over in the sixth chapter of Joshua, the bible recalls the narrative of Joshua and his army when they were able to defeat the city of Jericho. Joshua received very clear instructions from the Lord: Each day he and his army were to silently march around the city of Jericho once. On the 7th day, Joshua was instructed to do this seven times, but on the last time they were to shout as they went around the city. If they did this, the Lord promised that the walls surrounding the city would come tumbling down and Joshua and his army would have victory over the city.
Can you imagine the amount of faith it took for the lady with the discharge of blood to touch Jesus and believe for a healing? “If only I could touch his cloak, I will be healed.” She told herself. It’s interesting the amount of power in a touch. Jesus touched the rulers daughter and the blind man. The woman with the discharged touched Jesus’ cloak.
After spending eight weeks in Atlanta, I knew that it was not God’s will for me to be there. He was calling me home to Houston. There is still work for me to do in this city. Until that work is complete, I am not allowed to leave. My heart is here, so is my passion. I’m connected to a church filled with hope and believers and that pushes me to be the best person, the best follower of Christ, and the best example of Love I can be.