I’m not sorry it didn’t work out
I’m an obsessive compulsive dater. There… I said it!!! Blame it on my age and the feeling in the pit of my stomach that tells me that if I do not meet “The One” soon, then I’ll grow old and lonely.
Peace seems to be a reoccurring motif God keeps stressing to me. It’s almost as if I can feel his hand on my shoulder, drawing me back, saying, “I’ve got this, Mister.” Lol…. I’m laughing because I’m wired to be a take-charge person. Always have been. For people like me, sometimes it’s hard to let God do His work – we feel we can take care of everything on our own – but God continuously proves Himselves as the Alpha, the omnipotent One, the God who is in control.
As I enter my last week as a resident of Houston, I’ve been faced with so much anxiety – The how’s, the what ifs, the what wills… But being in Arkansas this weekend has taught me several lessons that I almost ignored.
The first lesson is that GOD IS ALWAYS ENOUGH. When we feel like we cannot do it, that’s when God steps in to show us He has had the solution all along. He has already worked out our needs before we even know they are present. “All things are working together for my good.” That’s God’s promise.
My neice’s birthday party was yesterday in Little Rock. When I flew into Arkansas Thursday night, I had already made up my mind that I would leave Saturday night after her party driving the car I purchased from my dad. There were some issues with the air that needed to be fixed before I could drive it, so I had to wait until that was done.
I paid the mechanic yesterday and he disappeared, leaving me stranded lol. He had already taken apart the dashboard, so I couldn’t leave even if I wanted to. Initially, I allowed this to frustrate me. I wanted to get back to Houston so I could have my Sunday to relax before going in for work for the week. I told my parents they would have to take me to Little Rock to the bus station. There was a megabus leaving for Dallas at 12:30am, which would get me to Dallas where I would transfer to the 7:10am bus to Houston. I had it all figured out.
My card declined as I tried to purchase the tickets. I paused because there is no way my card should have declined, but right before I pressed the button to submit the payment again, God interrupted me. “What are you doing?” He asked. Was rushing back to houston that important to me, that I would risk my safety, my life? I was sleepy, and probably would have fell asleep at the wheel.
God knew what He was doing when he sent the mechanic away, and when He stopped me from purchasing those tickets. “Be still”, is what I could hear Him saying.
And this was reassuring. God is in control. And the anxiety I’ve been facing toward this move away from Houston is suddenly relinguished. God is in control. He’s already gone before me and worked everything out in my favor. And He proves himself time and time again.
This moment, I am so full of love & peace. I’ve spent a beautiful week with my nieces and nephews. They’re the most amazing beings I know. They make me want to be better, to be an example for them as they grow up.
Anyway, I hope everyone has an awesome Sunday. Spend some time with your Heavenly Father, and watch how your life begins to change.
😘 xoxo 😘
“God won’t allow the enemy to keep lying to you. God will remind you of His promises. His promise to give you hope and a future!”
Chapter two of my new book, “A Vision of Victory,” is title Hear His Voice. In this chapter, I share some dark experiences from my past – places that I hid from everyone, or at least I thought so. At some point I’d contemplated suicide. My relationship with God was strained, and I’d distanced myself from my friends and family. I was right where the devil wanted me to be. But we serve a God who’s promised us victory, hope, and prosperity. You’ll read about how I was able to reclaim my victory and restore my position with God.
This past weekend, I traveled to Arkansas to a wedding. While I was there, I was able to meet with my family for dinner before I headed back to Texas. While at dinner, I was speaking with my niece (5), and she mentioned something got really got me emotionally upset. She mentioned how her and my nephews tease my older brother about his mental condition – he has schizophrenia. The said they call him “sick in the head.” Immediately, I corrected her. I looked her in the eyes and told her to never tease him in that way.
But in that moment, I found myself fighting back tears. I was hurt. Not necessarily hurt by my niece because she has to be taught how to treat people, but became emotional because of the heaviness of that burden my brother carries. To be honest, schizophrenia runs on my father’s side of the family. I pray for my brother every single day. I pray for my unborn children every single day. “Lord, break this family curse. Heal my brother. Restore His mind. I bind this curse from hindering my legacy – my children.”
It was an emotional experience for me because it let me know that I have to keep praying, keep believing, keep standing on God’s promises. James 5:14 says, “Is anyone among you sick? Let them call the elders of the church to pray over them and anoint them with oil in the name of the Lord.” So, this blog is for anyone who is facing any sickness; whatever that sickness may be. Lets (spiritually) touch and agree that God will break those chains of sickness and generational curses. The enemy has no power to keep you or your family in bondage anymore. Believe that healing is flowing through you and your loved ones right now.
“Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble, and He saved them in their distress. He sent out His word and healed them; he rescued them from the grave. Let them give thanks to the Lord for his unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for mankind.” Psalm 107:19-21. I believe this word. I am crying out for God to pour out healing through my family’s bloodline. I’m receiving this blood transfusion – Jesus’ blood for ours. If you believe this friends, I God is pouring of healing and restoring those broken places right now. In Jesus name. Amen.
“Don’t give your circumstances power over you; take power over your circumstances.”
Chapter One of my new book, “A Vision of Victory,” is titled Remove My Shame. In life, we’ve all done things we are not proud of. If we are not careful, the enemy will try and use these things to separate us from our relationship with God. He will tell you that God doesn’t love you. He’ll use people to bring up your past, and try to use that as a reason to disqualify you from the future God has planned for you. He’ll use shame to keep your perception of your tainted, obscured from the truth. But don’t believe the lies of the enemy. Don’t allow any room for the enemy in your life.
Had your shame over to God, whatever it is. God will restore you. He will renew you and make you whole again. The great thing about God – God forgives and forgets. He will remove your shame and restore you to wholeness. Isaiah 54:4 says this: “Fear not, for you will not be put to shame; And do not feel humiliated, for you will not be disgraced; But you will forget the shame of your youth, And the reproach of your widowhood you will remember no more.”
God is very clear in his direction. Forget the shame of your past. It does not account for what God is doing in your life right now, or for the future He is designing for you.
Read more about my encourage with shame from my past and how God restored me in my new book “A Vision of Victory.” Click here to order a copy. Be sure to subscribe to my site. Most post like this are coming your way. Be blessed, friends 🙂
P.S. Check out an excerpt from my book posted in The Houston Chronicle.
This book was a two year process: two years of experiencing loss, set-back, and hurt. It was a very painful process. I’ve never felt so attacked in any season of my life until this journey began. BUT GOD had a purpose for it all.
Happy Valentines Day to everyone reading this. This day is hard for many, but remember it’s a day that we celebrate love. There is no greater love than the love of Jesus, our Christ. He laid down his life so that we may have eternal life with our Father in Heaven.
If you notice yourself feeling a little down today, refocus your attention to Jesus. God is the source of all love. Are you glad we can call him Father and Friend?
Today, I choose to celebrate God’s love and vision for my life. My new book “A Vision of Victory” will be available March 1st. Can’t wait to share it with you all.
Be well. ❤️
“Hurt people hurt people.” At least that what “they” say. Recently, I was hurt. And not to even go into the specifics of the situations, because -at this point- they do not even matter. I remember asking the person who hurt me, “Why did you choose to make the choices you made?” I asked because I genuinely wanted to know. How could anyone hurt someone he or she claims to love? How could anyone continuously exhibit behavior that is detrimental to the mental and physical state of someone who they claim lives in their heart? It did not/has not registered with me still.
Take me out the club, keep me out the streets
Teach me everything you know
Love me like there’s no tomorrow
Take me on a wild adventure
Expose me to something new
Be the man in my fairytale,
and I’ll forever be true
Give me your time and your heart
Treat me like an investment
In return, I’ll give you the world
You’ll never live to regret it
Give me loyalty and give me life
Give me your body and soul
In return, you’ll have me forever
You’ll be my stars to the night
Share with me your vision
Tell me all of your dreams
In return, I’ll provide security
I’ll make sure it becomes reality
All I want is your love
It’s as simple as it can be
Hand in hand and heart in heart
Our love can set us free
by: Justin Jamaul White
In the middle of the night
when I’m inspired to write
I think of all these little men
and their dirty little lies