Can you imagine the amount of faith it took for the lady with the discharge of blood to touch Jesus and believe for a healing? “If only I could touch his cloak, I will be healed.” She told herself. It’s interesting the amount of power in a touch. Jesus touched the rulers daughter and the blind man. The woman with the discharged touched Jesus’ cloak.
Usually my blogs start with a scripture, or an anecdote leading in to what my message is about. This day, I have nothing but my transparency, which I have always had. Hopefully, somewhere between these lines, you will learn as I have learned.
Peace seems to be a reoccurring motif God keeps stressing to me. It’s almost as if I can feel his hand on my shoulder, drawing me back, saying, “I’ve got this, Mister.” Lol…. I’m laughing because I’m wired to be a take-charge person. Always have been. For people like me, sometimes it’s hard to let God do His work – we feel we can take care of everything on our own – but God continuously proves Himselves as the Alpha, the omnipotent One, the God who is in control.
As I enter my last week as a resident of Houston, I’ve been faced with so much anxiety – The how’s, the what ifs, the what wills… But being in Arkansas this weekend has taught me several lessons that I almost ignored.
The first lesson is that GOD IS ALWAYS ENOUGH. When we feel like we cannot do it, that’s when God steps in to show us He has had the solution all along. He has already worked out our needs before we even know they are present. “All things are working together for my good.” That’s God’s promise.
My neice’s birthday party was yesterday in Little Rock. When I flew into Arkansas Thursday night, I had already made up my mind that I would leave Saturday night after her party driving the car I purchased from my dad. There were some issues with the air that needed to be fixed before I could drive it, so I had to wait until that was done.
I paid the mechanic yesterday and he disappeared, leaving me stranded lol. He had already taken apart the dashboard, so I couldn’t leave even if I wanted to. Initially, I allowed this to frustrate me. I wanted to get back to Houston so I could have my Sunday to relax before going in for work for the week. I told my parents they would have to take me to Little Rock to the bus station. There was a megabus leaving for Dallas at 12:30am, which would get me to Dallas where I would transfer to the 7:10am bus to Houston. I had it all figured out.
My card declined as I tried to purchase the tickets. I paused because there is no way my card should have declined, but right before I pressed the button to submit the payment again, God interrupted me. “What are you doing?” He asked. Was rushing back to houston that important to me, that I would risk my safety, my life? I was sleepy, and probably would have fell asleep at the wheel.
God knew what He was doing when he sent the mechanic away, and when He stopped me from purchasing those tickets. “Be still”, is what I could hear Him saying.
And this was reassuring. God is in control. And the anxiety I’ve been facing toward this move away from Houston is suddenly relinguished. God is in control. He’s already gone before me and worked everything out in my favor. And He proves himself time and time again.
This moment, I am so full of love & peace. I’ve spent a beautiful week with my nieces and nephews. They’re the most amazing beings I know. They make me want to be better, to be an example for them as they grow up.
Anyway, I hope everyone has an awesome Sunday. Spend some time with your Heavenly Father, and watch how your life begins to change.
😘 xoxo 😘
“Don’t give your circumstances power over you; take power over your circumstances.”
Chapter One of my new book, “A Vision of Victory,” is titled Remove My Shame. In life, we’ve all done things we are not proud of. If we are not careful, the enemy will try and use these things to separate us from our relationship with God. He will tell you that God doesn’t love you. He’ll use people to bring up your past, and try to use that as a reason to disqualify you from the future God has planned for you. He’ll use shame to keep your perception of your tainted, obscured from the truth. But don’t believe the lies of the enemy. Don’t allow any room for the enemy in your life.
Had your shame over to God, whatever it is. God will restore you. He will renew you and make you whole again. The great thing about God – God forgives and forgets. He will remove your shame and restore you to wholeness. Isaiah 54:4 says this: “Fear not, for you will not be put to shame; And do not feel humiliated, for you will not be disgraced; But you will forget the shame of your youth, And the reproach of your widowhood you will remember no more.”
God is very clear in his direction. Forget the shame of your past. It does not account for what God is doing in your life right now, or for the future He is designing for you.
Read more about my encourage with shame from my past and how God restored me in my new book “A Vision of Victory.” Click here to order a copy. Be sure to subscribe to my site. Most post like this are coming your way. Be blessed, friends 🙂
P.S. Check out an excerpt from my book posted in The Houston Chronicle.
This book was a two year process: two years of experiencing loss, set-back, and hurt. It was a very painful process. I’ve never felt so attacked in any season of my life until this journey began. BUT GOD had a purpose for it all.
Isaiah 43: 18-19 “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing!” Happy NEW Year! Aren’t you glad God is doing a new thing in your life? If not, you most definitely should be. Let me tell you why.
Psalm 37:4 “Delight yourself in the Lord, and he’ll give you the desires of your heart.” A little over a month ago, I was visiting a friends apartment. We were out by the pool barbecuing and enjoying conversation and sun. It was a beautiful, 80 degree October day here in Houston. While we were conversing, I noticed a group of small kids – they were brothers and sisters, maybe cousins – playing in the pool. From what I gathered, they shouldn’t have been using the pool; either because they weren’t residents of the complex, or maybe someone had forbade them from using it. However, that didn’t stop them. They were “savages” as one of the little boys put it.
I wish I weren’t so vulnerable
I wish my heart didn’t love every. single. guy. I’ve ever been with
I wish I could be like them
Fucking every hole and not becoming emotionally attached
Hopping from bed to bed
With no remorse
Only seeking to devour my next victim within my own desires
Like a lion, prowling to conquer my next victim
A heartless being; seeking only dominance
Then, only then could I not be so vulnerable
Then I wouldn’t love them all
Then I’d be just like them
Slithering my charm like a snake
Making him feel good to the touch
Secretly squeezing the life from him
by: Justin Jamaul White