Change is here.
I’ve spent a lot of time in second place. I’ve let other people place me there, or I’ve unintentionally placed myself there trying to be the best for others. Trying to be everything for everyone but myself. No more.
I’m 9 days away from 30. Honestly, I was feeling bad about it. There are certain goals and accomplishments I haven’t reached that I thought I would have by now. So, I’ve been throwing myself a pity party over the course of the past few weeks.
However, as I was packing up my apartment today, preparing for my move, I realized that this is an opportunity for a fresh start. It’s a time to leave the hurt, the anxiety, the fears, and the bad memories in the past. I’m moving on. As I packed, I began to throw away things that were cluttering my life. Things that I’d been holding on to that I should have been let go of. As I packed and tossed, I felt better. I felt confident in my decision to move forward and let go of the past and some poor decisions I’ve repeatedly made, especially involving others.
In this season, I’m choosing to be selfish. I’m choosing to do things my way, in my time. I can no longer be in second place. That is not my ministry. So, if you see this bold new Justin, you better act according or get out of my way. It’s my time.