I’ve been fighting the devil all week. I’m exhausted. But what gives me hope is know that the fight is fixed, and I have already been declared the winner.
I know a breath-through must be on the way, because this has been the most difficult start to a year I’ve ever experienced. I ended the year with goals and was stirred up about what God was about to do in this season. But what I can say is that the enemy has been attacking me since December 31st! He couldn’t even wait until January 1. Ugh! Right!? Has anyone else experienced this?
It’s been 21 days of hell. I’ve been praying, I’ve been fasting, I’ve been believing, and yet the enemy attacks have been coming harder and harder, nonstop. This week was the roughest. I couldn’t even make it to work Wednesday. I was up all night on Tuesday, tossing and turning because I was fighting the enemy. He was causing disruption and turmoil in my life. Thursday, the battle became even worse, almost to the point where I just gave up and let him win.
When I arrived to work Friday, I felt defeated. I tried not to think about the battle, but it was written all over my face. A coworker approached me at lunch and asked me if I was okay. The moment she asked, I began to unravel. I went to my office and began to weep, uncontrollably; to the point I had to ask my boss to leave so I could come home and gather myself.
When I came home, I talked to my husband. We shared some challenges we had both been facing, and honestly that was a turning point in my battle. The enemy wanted to make me feel isolated, like I could not talk to anyone about what had been going on. But that’s his goal. When we are going through, the devil does his best to isolate us from our loved ones, from our church, from our friends and families. This is how he keeps us in bondage.
Well, this is my message to the devil: “Not today, Satan! You have no power over here! You are bound and defeated, in Jesus name!”
During service this morning, the pastor confirmed exactly what I’d been feeling. He was stating how the enemy was challenging many of us who started the year of with high hopes and such. Quickly, we’ve lost our flames because of what has been happening in our lives. I began to weep, yet again.
In the midst of that, the Lord asked me to plant an additional seed to what I’d already given for my tithe. Without question, I gave it. I don’t know what the Lord is doing, but I know that seed will blossom into a mighty blessing.
“God, I thank You in advance for defeating the enemy. I pray that You continue to give me courage to face any challenge and overcome it through Christ Jesus. Continue to guide me and my family; be at the center of it all! All the love, all the challenges, all the happiness, and all the pain.”
Isaiah 43:2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.