God never ceases to amaze me with the opportunities He continuously provides. Saturday, May 20, I was asked to speak at the Black Orchid Book Club meeting about my new book, “A Vision of Victory.” It was a time of fellowship, and talking about God – two of my favorite things!
I was nervous speaking about myself. Naturally, I am a writer, and that is my preferred method of communication. I’ve realized that God continues to grow me spiritually, I have to come out of my shell and be able to verbally communicate with those around me.
Enough of that…
One questions the ladies asked me was if my cousin ever apologized to me, and how is our relationship now? (If you have not read the book, they were referencing an experienced I talked about in it.)
Honestly, I had not considered having a discussion with my cousin in regards to what transpired when I was a young boy. They suggested that the conversation should bring closure to the situation, as it is still a painful experience to recount.
Truthfully speaking, I don’t know if I want to have that conversation. That’s one thing I will have to pray about. God has been gracious enough to allow me to deal with it through therapy and writing. And I feel that the issue with my cousin wasn’t about me, it was moreso about her relationship with my parents. I just got caught in the crossfire; at least that’s what I tell myself.
Additionally, the ladies expressed a great concern for my well-being. I wrote about suicide and how I got to that point and how I was able to overcome that state of depression. I was happy to report that I am in a great place in my life. Better that I have been in a long while. I am at peace. And maybe this was God’s place all along – to build my tolerance, my perseverance; to get me to a place where nothing can affect me.
Honestly, the devil has tried very hard to destroy me in many areas of my life. I truly believe its because my destiny’s too great. God’s plan for my life are so explosive that the enemy wants to stop it. The good news is that the victory is already one. *insert praise break*
I pray that God continues to open doors and allow me to speak with people and share my testimony.
If you have had the chance to read “A Vision of Victory” yet, you can check it out here.