This book was a two year process: two years of experiencing loss, set-back, and hurt. It was a very painful process. I’ve never felt so attacked in any season of my life until this journey began. BUT GOD had a purpose for it all.
Specifically, I remember the beginning of this journey. God gave my the title “A Vision of Victory”. I could see it in my head as clearly as I see the words on this page. Then, He gave me the topics that he wanted me to speak on. I trembled. I had no clue what I would say. But I love the idea of the Lord using me. And that’s really all He needs in order to work through you.
Because I felt as if I didn’t have much of a personal reference to pull from, I thought I would write about other people’s journey’s with God. I began to solicit people for interviews. “Tell me about a time God did something major for you in your life. What was it exactly? How’d you feel?” This was me doing things in my own right, but God had a different plan, a different vision for this book.
Instead of writing about others, God wanted me to write my own testimony. I was unaware at the time, but this is how it all played out. Why God chose me, I’m still not fully sure, but I trust His purpose, His plan, His vision.
Shortly after starting this title, I began to experience life, and not in the most pleasant of ways. First, I had to relocate back to Houston from Los Angeles, a very hurtful transition for me, but, in hindsight, it was a great move – for my career, and my faith.
When I arrived back to Houston, my finances were in disarray. I was behind on my car loan, credit cards, and just about everything else. God humbled me. It was a rough time. I’d been so used to being on my own for so long and being self-sufficient. It was the first time in a long time I had to rely on my parents for help. It was the beginning of God stripping away my pride. To share my testimony, I couldn’t have a prideful spirit. God wanted me to be very transparent. And you’ll see just exactly how transparent once you begin reading this testimony.
The next steps in the process was teaching me how to trust and depend solely on Him. My prayer life changed. How I prayed and what I prayed for changed tremendously. Although I was in need, God showed me how praying for others would benefit me in the long-run. After all, we all rely on one another to survive.
After all that, God still had to deal with my heart. I had a heart-condition. I let the wrong people in and shut wrong people out. He had to change my perception of what real love is. He had to teach me how to keep my inner-circle tight, and surround myself with people who are willing to pray for me and build me up.
Through this, my circles began to change, friendships began to end. Things I used to do, I didn’t do anymore. Things I found interesting, stopped inciting my interested. I was changing. I was becoming a man.
And here, now, you will read about this journey to freedom. This Vision of Victory. Consider this book a conversation between a lost young man and an all-knowing God. Watch the lessons I learn and experience and apply them to your own life, your own journey. I promise if you do, you life will change forever.