6 For the Lord gives wisdom;
from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
7 He holds success in store for the upright,
he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,
8 for he guards the course of the just
and protects the way of his faithful ones.
I was living in my fantasy. I’d met the man who I thought I’d spend the rest of my life with. He was glittery, shiny, had a gorgeous smile, and came in a very manicured, well-dressed package. But how many of us know that the devil doesn’t come as he’s portrayed in pictures? He comes disguised as everything we’ve ever dreamed of, everything we’ve ever wanted.
From the beginning, I knew it wasn’t right. God whispered into my spirit. I felt the nerves, but I chose to ignore it; I chose to ignore God’s voice. I didn’t want to believe my fantasy was just that, a fantasy, an illusion. An illusion that would soon, and very unnoticeably, distract me from God.
This was an epiphany. I was having dinner with an old colleague when it dawned on me… All is this was a clever plot of the enemy; a distraction. God tried to warn me. He spoke very clearly to my spirit in the beginning and my spirit spoke it to me. Some call this intuition, I call it God’s voice. I ignored His voice and fell out of His grace.
God’s desire is to protect us, to keep us safe and out of harms way. Because this world is so wicked, tainted in sin, it is important for us to stay connected to God through the Spirit. The enemy is busy trying to sever that connection… in the most subtle of ways. God warns us, guides us, send us signs and messages, but if we aren’t in tune with our spirit, constantly communing with God, we miss those warnings; we don’t hear His voice when He is speaking.
Consequently, when we are disconnected from God by not listening to His voice, it makes us vulnerable to the evils of the world. This is when we experience unfortunate circumstances that He tries to protect us from. Because He is all-seeing and all-knowing, He communicates with our spirit-man. He gives us vision and clarity. However, it is up to us to take heed to His voice, to hear Him when He speak.
Because I’d allowed myself to become distracted by my fantasy, I didn’t listen to His voice. In addition to some unfortunate circumstances occurring in my life, I also fell into a deep depression. I became suicidal – a psychological issue I’d never experienced before.
Those were the moments I realized I’d been slowly, craftily led away from God’s covering of Grace. It was the enemy. It was my fault for allowing myself to get so far away from the protection of God. I was mentally hurt, my spirit was bruised, my heart was in pieces.
I needed to heal. I learned a very powerful lesson. Stay in His Grace. The first thing I did was apologize to God; I repented. He warned me and I didn’t listen to His voice. I could’ve saved myself a barrel of tears and a broken heart.
The communication between myself and my Creator got better. He began to restore and heal me. I had to forgive myself and forgive those who hurt me. And now, I’m listening to His voice again. I cannot afford to be distracted; I will not risk my soul. I will not risk being hurt and being susceptible to evil.
All of that leads me to this point. I was reading in proverbs 2 and came to this understanding. God desires to give us wisdom. He wants to keep us safe and protected. We have to desire Him in order for this to happen. We have to communicate with him constantly.
Stay encouraged, my friends.