I’ll never forget the night we met. You have your sunglasses on. Vibin’. Dancing. You just knew you were the s-h-i-t. And I knew I wanted you. That physical attraction became a love attraction. You stole my heart. It was completely accidental. Two worlds clashing into one. You “cut off the hoes” for ya boy *insert smirk* You made me feel so special. I wonder if you know how much I admire you. A young, black, successful man. I’m so proud to stand by your side. Our styles complement each other, but more importantly, I believe in you. I believe in all that you can be. I see you the way God sees you and that makes me love you even more.
Creepy, but I watch you as you sleep. Your heavy, grizzly-like breathing does more to me than you can imagine. Especially after I fed you, or we’ve made love… and you gracefully fall asleep. I’m left awake thinking, “Wow. I did that!” I’ve made him happy. When we’re making love and I’m whispering in your ear, “I’ll do anything for you,” it’s not me being caught in the moment; I really would do anything for you. I love you that much. I love you so much it hurts.
It hurts when you can’t express yourself to me. It hurts when we can talk. Last night I thought I would die. I laid crying uncontrollably on the living room floor as you slumbered away in the bed. What can I do to be perfect for him? How can I be better… for him? That’s where the hurt comes in. Tell me what you want and I’ll do it.
Fifty years from now I still want to lay on your chest and listen to you breathe. I still want you to fall asleep in my lap after you eat and I’m up watching Criminal Minds or Power or Game of Thrones or whatever show that annoys the shit out of you. I want to wake you up by jumping in the bed every morning and repeating your name over and over just to annoy you. I want to bother you for the rest of my life, because that’s how much I love you.
I can’t picture myself going a day without you. I want to wake up to your morning breath every day… And that doesn’t matter because the minute you flash me that gorgeous smile, I’ll dive right into your mouth for a morning kiss. That’s how much I love you.
I know it hasn’t been easy, but it’s worth it. It’s frustrating, but I’m willing to learn, if you’re willing to teach. I’m willing to teach you how to treat me, but this has to be a two-way street.
All of that concludes with these final thoughts…. If we are honest and trusting with one another, then we will thrive. Baby, I want to be your best friend. I want to know all of your secrets. I want you to tell me all of your fears. Just as you are my Superman, I’ll be your Robin. I’ll always have your back and I’ll never be too far away when you call. That’s how much I love you.