As I uber’d to the airport, I could hardly stomach looking out the window. Los Angeles has so many people I love and care for; my heart is there. How would you feel if you had to leave your heart behind?
L.A. is home, but for whatever reason, God hasn’t allowed me to leave Houston yet. And I have to be okay with that until He releases me. It’s a tough pill to swallow, but obedience is key. Sometimes we have to sacrifice what we want for the greater good. No one said it would be easy, but it’s definitely necessary.
Words can’t describe the magnitude of the connection that I have with that city. One day, I’ll return home. Only God knows when. Until then, I won’t question, I’ll just exist and enjoy every moment of life that I can.
Danyell, Raynell, Nathan, Miikey & Will, Jordan, Joshie, Nikki, Julius, James, Sergio, my Dallas friends, who were in town, and Tacarra (even tho I didn’t get to see you), and the new friends I made while there – Dathan and Trek – the singing group. Shoutout to you all for making this the best vacation I’ve ever had.
This 3.5 hour flight is wearing on me and I’m ready to get off this plane, although I’m not ready to be back in Houston. However, I have to attend Jamaal’s b’day pool party this Saturday and a party for Shaughn. Someone said to me yesterday, “You stay booked.” And that, I do.
I’m all for creating memories with the people I love… And if me showing up for them at their request can create a magical moment, then I am for it.
Returning home also means me dealing with my professional and personal life. 😩 While in L.A., I didn’t have to focus on those things. However, I need to begin prepping for my new job asap. There is a ton of reading and preparing I need to begin. Now is the perfect time for that. Also, I’m gearing up to move into a new apartment, which is stressful in itself. *sighs*
And to the matter of my personal life… I had a conversation with my “him”. I told him I’d be patient until he’s ready. I told him I want it all. I want his heart and definitely all of his attention. I feel that we are slowly working towards a common goal. I’ve never, ever been this patient with a guy, but this one is worth the wait. He’ll be my husband.
Anyway, enough of that. I’ll be landing within the hour. Hit me up, Houston.
Until next time, Fancy Friends…