I was on one of my nightly twitter rants
discussing venting about the last relationship that I was in while I was in Houston. And part of my frustration is that we never had closure. I spoke with “him” today. It was hard; it’s always hard. I never got over him. This was the one time that I actually fought falling in love; he kind of stole my heart. And I don’t really think he even tried to. But it happened. But to this day, I still love him and would do anything for him.
One of my twitter friends, @MikeDaKatt replied, “If you built the bridge it takes a few steps to get there…
#OverAintEasy“. Truer words were never spoken. It’s not easy to just get over someone, especially when the heart is involved. It blows my mind that even to this day, I’d do anything for this guy. That’s because I do not love halfway, I go all in. Even when I tripped and fell in love accidently. What I’ve learned by going through this is that you can’t help who you love AND you can’t dictate when you fall out of love. The heart is the most uncontrollable organ we possess. I believe that’s why God instructs us to guard and protect it with all that we have. It the most precious thing we possess; heart, that is. It controls our love and our lives. It makes us who we are.
What I want you all to take away from this blog is simple. It’s okay to continue to love someone that is not a part of your everyday life anymore, for whatever reason. Sometimes it takes being apart to make you better and to make the love stronger. Love changes us; it challenges and grows us. And when it’s real, it’s not easy. Over isn’t easy. But you will continue to love… You will fall in love again. And again and again and again until you finally fall in love with THE ONE. At that point, nothing else you’ve been through up to that point will matter, because you’ll have all that you need.
In the meanwhile, LOVE YOURSELF. The relationship with yourself is more important than any other relationship you could ever have; outside of your relationship with God. Figure out what makes you happy and what makes you smile. Date yourself and treat yourself to nice things. Because if you don’t like you, no one else will. More importantly, if you don’t love yourself, it will be next to impossible to be with anyone else who does.
My goal is to always get on here and speak life and positivity and encouragement. As I encourage you, I also encourage myself. No, I am not over him. Yes, I still love him. But, guess what? I love myself. And I’m perfectly fine with still being in love with him. Who knows what the future holds? Life is a journey; not a destination. So, I promise myself that I will live my life the way I want. I will eventually get “over” that love, maybe. Either way, I’m fine. I’m lucky. Not everyone experiences a connection like we had. So, I’ll forever cherish that. And I’ll live with no regrets.I encourage you to do the same.
Until next time, Fancy Friends 🙂