Before we get started… Hey, y’all. I can’t believe it’s been since April. Whew! Um… I really have no excuse. I’ve just allowed myself to become distracted by things that ultimately do not matter. And there it is. And I want to start this by saying that. I’ve always been very transparent on here, and that will never stop. So, before we begin… I don’t know how much I am going to share. Some things I have to save for a later time, but I hope to share enough to where you get some insight as to why I have been missing from here.
Some told me today that I should keep my relationships off social media. When I asked why, this person could offer no valid response, well tbh no response at all. This let me know his statement was delivered through his biases of his personal experiences; rather that be his relationships, or ones he’s observed.
“Social Media isn’t what’s breaking people up.” Okay, he didn’t said it exactly that way, but I’ve revised the sentence to proper English for the purposes of (hell, I really don’t know)… 😂 anyway, I’ve very scatterbrained right now 😂 However, that is what he meant.
That brings me to these points…
Social media isn’t what’s breaking us up.( What’s breaking us up is…)Our lack of commitment. Our lacks of self-control. Our anger issues. Our trust issues. Our identity issues. Our self-worth issues. Our respect for ourselves. Our lacks of respect for others. Our lacks of understanding of ourselves, really. And that lists goes on and on and on. Ugh. 💆🏽♂️
And It’s not the issues that are the problem. It’s our unwillingness to deal with them. To face them. To engage in conflict with them. And to finally have victory over those issues. We don’t want to look at ourselves in the mirror, and face our on truths about ourselves… because some of those truths aren’t so pretty. It’s okay… you can say “ouch.” I said it too. Those words hurt. They hurt like hell.
But that’s the beauty of this all. In a relationship. A true relationship, each partner can be right there in the middle of the struggle with their other half’s. Holding them, and loving them, and crying with them, and building with them, and creating with them. Troubles don’t last always.
But most don’t grit their always because they give up. Either they give up on their partners, or they give up on themselves. And that’s another loaded statement that I could go on and on about, but I’ll digress to this…
We all have to do better. We have to be better. We have to love better. Or we’ll all get stuck in continuous cycles of toxicity.
The goodness of God is in His grace…and we get a fresh batch of it every morning.😩🥰 He’s already been TOO good. If He did nothing else, He’s already done enough. But He genuinely loves doing and being good to us. He wants it so much he gives us a new grace, a new good, each day. Grace is God’s goodness.
I’ve been fighting the devil all week. I’m exhausted. But what gives me hope is know that the fight is fixed, and I have already been declared the winner.
“You can’t be holding on to the past and at the same time have open hands to receive what God is trying to give you in the now.” – Devon Franklin
For a long time I lived for the validation of others. Subconsciously and unintentionally, but that fact still remains. But God, over the past three years, has shifted my mindset and grown me in ways I was not expecting. This growth has been painful, stressful, and at times, more than I thought I could handle. Yet, I am still here. Still changing, still growing.